Hi blogger Peeps,
I'm back after a 7 month hiatus and a lot has happened.
The hubby and I had an amazing summer, we met some incredible people on the lake and have developed some amazing friendships. The lake life became our lifestyle and now that summer is over, we have still managed to still want to party with our friends no matter where we are.
Now it's almost time for the holidays to approach again and 2014 is once again almost over...now on to the real talk.....A couple of weeks I posted a very touchy subject for others and huge supporters from other people....I decided a month ago that I didn't want children. As those who have been following my baby journey for months, the time has come to close that decision. My reasons are that I no longer wanted to go through the emotions, heartache and spend the money in trying to bring children into this world...This decision affected my husband emotionally as I thought that he was on board, but the day after this post went live on Facebook our marriage changed dramatically...I never thought that a decision of not having kids could possibly break a marriage apart....I was torn and it hurt my heart to go through these emotions....I was beside myself..
All kinds of things went through my mind like what if my husband decides to leave me to be with another woman who does want to have kids? How am I going to move on with my life?
Where does our marriage go from here?
We came to a conclusion that I was willing to do anything to make our marriage work and to make both of us happy even if that means we have to harvest my eggs to try to have a family, but....
The hubby talked to his father a few days after all this went down and his father did not side with him about anything, something that he was not expecting. His father asked him "Why can't you be happy without kids"? " You don't need to spend that money to try and have them" ...after that talk that he needed, he's come to realization that "Okay, we don't want kids, let's just live life and party".
So at the end of the day, we are going to be that happily married couple with no kids and just live it up. Traveling is going to be the best medicine for us right now, seeing the world will give us a sense of peace and closeness that I hope to have even if part our lives are missing without any human babies.....Our careers will be the main focus now as it will keep our minds busy, but I just pray that marriage will survive all of this so blogger fans, the hopes of me bringing good news of me bringing half breeds into this world will not exist but I won't stop blogging about new adventures in my life.
Thanks for all my supporters, followers and fans for following me through this journey, I hope you continue to follow to see what life has in store...
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